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We walk on these familiar streets

Sharing stories and the joy of laughter

The city sleeps

And the sight of your eyes 

Underneath the moonlight is what I'm after

The night is full

Nothing is seems more bright

But smile my dear

Prove me wrong

We walk over this familiar bridge

Still waters underneath

Only to be moved

By the gentle breeze

It catches your hair

And like a thief I'm caught

I tried to make off with a kiss but you pull away

No one sees

The city still sleeps

We walk to this familiar door

We think so much

And say so little

Dare I move closer?

We stare at each other but neither moving forward

It's now or never

Before I can even decide

One finger decides for me

All that you say

The only thing that rings in my heart to this day,

"The city is still asleep..." 

Why Do I Keep Writing About Love?

This isn't a poem. I'm taking a sort of break from those for now. It's been a while since I've shared what's on my mind and heart. To put it out there first of all, thank you for reading this blog. It is greatly appreciated and I honestly hope that it helps you in your life in some way. 

I tend to write poems with a specific theme. As many of you can probably guess I enjoy writing about romance and relationships. Whether this is between two people or our relationship with God, I can't help but write with this specific theme. I know what some of you might be thinking:

- He's so sensitive

- Dude you need to lay off the rom coms

- No one actually reads your stuff bro

- What a sap

- Will he stop writing this lovey dovey crap

- What's so great about love man?

- Just shut up already with this long list of imaginary quotes

It's true that some of you are thinking that way now. I would like to first address that if you don't like my writing than by all means you don't have to read it. Some may disagree with how much I share about my life and some may think it's a blessing. Either way, I would like to say that I am smart enough to keep specific details of my life between be and a few close friends. However, there are plenty of things in my life that I believe people can relate to. This is a great transition into what I want to talk about next. The best way that I can explain why I write this theme over and over again is quite simple. 

I truly believe that love is the most powerful experience, thing, entity, feeling and force ever.

My parents officially divorced when I was 19 years old but were separated since I was 10.

The thought of marriage scares me to my absolute core.

As much as I write about love time and time again, the idea of spending life with another is simultaneously terrifying, intriguing and beautiful.

We are all made to love something and in our world today there are so many things to love.

I'm not going to bother listing anything out you guys are smart enough to think of a few things right now.

I've probably said this before but it's good to say it again.

Even though my parents are divorced, I believe that my marriage won't end the same way.

There are plenty of scenarios that have played out in my head that would test this statement.

I get it and I have no evidence to persuade you as to why I believe this.

The reason I have faith is because I choose to believe that God is love.

And if I truly believe in my mind and heart that this is real, I will also believe that He will never leave me.

I want to demonstrate this same love to the future Mrs.

I've talked to numerous couples from all across the spectrum:

- Newly engaged couple

- Newlyweds

- Married for 1 year, 2 years, 3 years, 4 years, 8 years, 18 years, 20 years, 30 years.

I'm only 22 and I know that marriage takes work. Though I may not know the extent to how much is put in, I do know that it will be the most challenging and rewarding part of your life.

And with this statement, I will also say that it is great that I am single.

What better time to prepare for the rest of my life than right now?

I've made plenty of relationship mistakes in my life and will probably make a whole lot more.

I've second guessed my actions, blamed God for a lot of problems in those relationships and even used Him as a scapegoat.

Getting into a dating relationship is not going to automatically fix those problems and personal insecurities. I've had that mindset for so long and it is wrong!

I need to be responsible for my own growth as a person.

Anyway, I need to focus on what God has called me to right now.

I have a job to do, a ministry to serve and people to love.

More importantly, there is a God that I have done wrong over and over again.

I've been so selfish with my time and my relationship with God is becoming more of an obligation.

If the non-negotiable for dating is whether or not the woman loves and fears God, I should be able to say that I love and fear Him too.

To kinda end this little whatever it may be, I will say that I have no idea when God will grace me with a wife.

He can honestly take His sweet time because I know I'm not ready.

If He says otherwise then I don't know really. I'd probably be praying a bunch about it.

Everyone says, "You'll just know."

This is probably the most helpful advice for single people (completely sarcastic).

But, I will probably say the same thing when it happens to me which does not help the future teenagers I will undoubtedly talk to in the future.

I like where I'm at in life.

Sometimes it's hard. When I see friends get engaged or married, it kinda makes me think about when it will happen to me.

I don't have it all figured out and I'm not always optimistic.

There are times when waiting really sucks and I want to settle for the next cute girl I see.

This is my struggle and it's a good thing.

Even though there are times I would like to settle I never go through with it.

I blame it on a couple of awesome ex-girlfriends and some really godly women in my life.

So for my fellow single friends out there, I understand some of your frustrations and happiness.

Love is real.

Even though circumstances and past experience may point to the contrary, I'm here to say that love is just as alive today as it was yesterday.

It's worth waiting for, worth sharing and worth a lifetime.

Love is and will always be, above everything.

For Sky Gazers

There is a sky I wish to see

The vibrant colors reflect your personality

The clouds show off your creativity

And whether it is sunrise or sunset,

There is only beauty

I can't explain why this intangible masterpiece is 

Still elusive to my sight

Will you find me?

Or shall I search for you?

If so, where are you hiding and where shall I start?

I've surveyed this land, scanned my eyes across the seas

But looking at a horizontal direction

I only see glimpses

Bits and pieces of something truly remarkable

Different personalities here and inspiring creativity there.

Every so often there is something beautiful to behold

Words to describe and lungs to breathe it in

But I want to lose all of that when I look up and see you

I have yet to see a sky worth my gaze.

I want you to be the first

Before the sun sets today

There is a thirst that pleads to be satisfied

To drink in every moment at first sight

Will you let me find you?

Or shall I wait here?

Who Knocks Anymore?

I think that with the advancement of technology

We are moving forward

We have more ways to communicate

More ways to connect

We even have doorbells to replace knocking

How simple is life nowadays?

It seems all too often that even though we are moving forward

The only thing that knocks anymore is the past

And when it comes, things get complicated don't they?

Out with the old and in with the new I say

But still it knocks hoping to stay a while and catch up

The last thing I should do is exactly that

Don't give me your coat or ask me where to hang your hat because

You're leaving through the same way you just entered

I'm a different person these days

You may even say new altogether

It was silly of me to even answer the door right?

I mean, who knocks anymore?
Next time I will know better

Because I'm moving forward

The past isn't going anywhere

But I am,

Here in the present

And looking towards a brighter future

For A Teenager

Give me anything but routine

Breakfast in the morning

School throughout the day

Lunch is not mandatory

Extracurriculars in the afternoon

Homework at night

And dinner with the family

Depending on the day it could come before homework

But let's not get too crazy

I mean it takes some effort to keep to this schedule

And yet I need something to survive

So give me acceptance wrapped in nicotine

Give me reputation clothed in sex

Give me relationships held together by social media

Anything but routine

Every day has become a game of hide and seek

A game of follow the leader

And a game of Red Rover

I want to be on the right side

Who likes to be alone all their life?

I'm no Emily what's her name from English class

It's nice to be a person people looked up to

The hard part is trying to hide not only those cigarettes

But who my parents want me to be

What they want me to do

And where they want me to go in life

Go to high school

Get good grades

Go to college

Get good grades

Go to work

Get a good salary

Go to church

Get on your knees and pray

Go through life

Get a good spouse

Go through life

Get a good retirement

And this is supposed to be the schedule of my life until death?

All that I do is 

Go...go...go...

In order to 

Get...get...get

Something that is

Good...good...good

I guess that's why grades stop at "F"

They leave the last letter for the rest of your life after school's done

What if I want something other than good?

I want something:

Fantastic

Extravagant

Daring

Challenging

Beautiful

Amazing

Is this allowed?

Instead of going somewhere in order to simply get,

Can I do something in order to feel?

Can I donate something in order to provide?

Can I stand above something and simply be in awe?

I'm so sick of routine and I feel that as I get older

None of it changes

So I guess for now I need something else

Until I can stop going and getting something good

I guess I'll keep going to drugs, sex and social media

To get my daily fix of acceptance and popularity

Building relationships with numerous people in order to feel good about myself

If there's anything better than routine

May it come closer to where I am

Because I'm sick of hiding.

For The Romantic Soul

My love,

This may be too bold to say but

Will you let me romance you?

I see you're in shock

My dear it's only because you haven't seen better

You were never meant to settle as if you're inferior

You were meant to be a partner

Someone has tricked you into believing that good is somehow normal

Again I say,

Let me romance you

Let me sweep you off your feet with candlelit dinners or a delightful cup of coffee.

Let me make you blush with sweet gifts and whisper sweet truths in your ear

Let me make you a masterpiece or create an original piece of art.

Let me hold your hands to remind you of reality and let me taste your lips to blur the lines.

May our conversations bring your heart joy and revive that remarkable glimmer in your eyes.

May the hope of fairytales and happily ever afters never fade or stray away.

Let me romance you my sweet darling.

Let this love spark your imagination and bring you to a world of endless possibilities.

May that spark burst into flames and bring forth a new burning passion.

Let me run after you during days of laughter and carry you through times of hurt.

Let me walk beside you in days of doubt and gaze with you in times of comfort.

Let me romance you my love.

Let me into a world that none have entered.

It’s not an amusement park, nor shall it be treated as such.

I only bring you a heart in love that is backed by my word.

Test me by the standard of exceptional character and honesty.

Find evidence through faithfulness, trust, integrity, purity, patience and grace.

Let me be clear with you.

Your love means everything to me and though I am limited in time and resources, I can guarantee commitment.

I can’t guarantee promises because life’s circumstances can always alter those plans.

But my commitment to you and only you will never break.

Let me romance you my beautiful princess.

I have but one lifetime and I desire to share it with you.

I want to dance with you until our feet bring us both to paradise.

I want to sing with you until the very last breath.

I’m hoping to give you my best at the beginning and make every effort to keep it there until the end.

This is my heart's true desire

And if these words seem too lavish or too good to be true then by all means disregard all that has been said today

I only ask that you let me show you what makes me feel alive

Let me show you the difference between feeling and knowing.

Let me show you the difference between thinking and doing.

Let me show you the difference between dreaming and being.

Let me show you the difference between me and everyone else.

Let me show you true romance my dear.